Monday, August 27, 2012

The Bloke who sleeps at the desk next to me

          If you're coming to work to sleep, then why come? I do sleep at work too, however, when I watch this fat ass sleep right next to me, I tell myself, I must have been a real jerk myself to be sleeping while I was on shift. I ask for forgiveness. Now, how do I correct the wrong around me? How do I wake this ignorant bum who snores his way and sleep talks alongside the period I look out for alerts with my eyes wide open and rub my scalp to enhance ideas for reports. What a hindrance. What a mind block. What a pain in the ass. Where do I runt my feelings? How do I highlight this? As I type these words and think hard within my brain cells, it annoys me that the buffalo just keeps snoring in Dreamland. Fucker! Ass hole! Wake up, damn it! I'm half my mind to just walk off and let some issue trigger under his responsibility. May I?


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Saturday, July 14, 2007

Is it too much to ask for

Cashell simply could not stop caring for Lionel. There was just too much love. She had already sipped into her that she would care for him forever whether he liked it or not. It's true, she did confess to him once upon a time and his answer was some what a 'no'. It sounded more like, 'I want to live my life now, please don't disturb me.' But to Cashell it sounded like, 'I like you but you're not the one, don't you get it? I just don't feel it with you.'

What could hurt her more? Is this indirect 'no' a full stop to all her care for him too? No, she could not stop caring. Besides, he was too good not to care for. He was so sweet, so kind, so special to her. Why would she want to stop caring for an angel like him? She asked him if she move on, he said 'yes'. He asked her to move on. She got hurt again. She said it was difficult upon her and asked him to behave like a jerk so she would start hating him or just avoid her so she would be able to forget him. Do you know what he said? 'I will never act like a jerk towards you and there's one thing i'd never to is to avoid you.' In fact he even asked if she was fine the next day. He was worried about her. He was worried he had hurt her feelings. The last thing he wanted to do was to hurt someone.

She asked him, 'Can i still care for you?' He said, 'yes :) ' Friendship went on. Of course Lionel was a special friend to Cashell compared to any other friend she had. She cared for him like he was her own. She felt responsible for his successes and failures, his happiness and sadness, his where abouts, everything. Some how she felt that he was getting uncomfortable.

One day she told him, 'Lionel, don't worry, I don't have any feelings for you anymore.As in, I don't think of you in that sort of way anymore. I just love you very very much as a friend and will care for you all along.' Lionel was sort of pleased with that. He was kind and sweet and entertained her much. However, she wanted more. She felt he was not giving her enough, even of the friendship. She realised she was being an idiot, like a parent, a nurturer who got nothing back in return. She wanted to see him smile all the time, but he would not know if she was smiling or not. She wanted to see his successes but he wouldn't know where she fell that day. She wanted to him grow in wealth and health but he never knew her ill-being. It was more like he did not want to know. I guess even if he knew who would not make a fuss of it. She always wondered if it's just his nature or is just that he never bothered.

She had to send two messages to get one reply. She had to buzz and message a couple of times before she was responded to. She had to call to talk for he never dialed her number on his phone. What was all this about? A one sided love? How long was she going to be an idiot? A donkey? She felt so stupid. Once upon time, she nevr bothered if he was alive or dead. Yes, she did have a crush on him but no, it was not love. She was in love with some one else.

Cashell had loved her very own cousin since she was nine. Of course through the paths in life she had fallen for others but they were all not serious cases. She was so into that cousin of hers, she did not realise she would get so hurt at the end of the day when her cousin rejected her love. He was not into her. What was it she used to wonder. She was not very bright in school. Even in the uni, not excelling. A very bubbly, fat girl she was, and not much features either. She was tough, dark, tom-boyish, immature and yes, she is still now. You would probably say she's not girlfriend material. She was not that girl all guys dreamed of. Nope, if i was a guy, i wouldn't want to be her boy friend :| So, just as she was rejected, appeared Lionel who was an angel to her. He told her things that brightened her days, told her that she was worth more.

As I had mentioned earlier, Lionel was just another person in her life. She did not bother for his well-being before this. Although she had a crush on him, she would just smile or giggle when she saw him years back, like when she was 17, he did not matter much to her. Lionel was a funny, charming boy, but rather immature she would say, not boy friend material, just another boy. But this statement when she was 17, and he was 18 already. She always felt like he would never grow. But who knew what the future held. She did care though. She felt bad when he lagged and felt happy when he lead. One year had passed, and they separated when she was 18 and he was 19. Nope, no love then. He was just another walking person to her. She happily departed from him and went into a new world.

Months had passed, no contact with Lionel, but he would miss call once in a while and she would miss call him back. And she would just call him once a year for his birthday. He never called her for hers. That's all. Nothing more in their relationship. Until one day, when he called her out for lunch on his birthday. She was surprised. And all his friends knew too. Much to her shock, she found that his friends were teasing him with her for a very long time already but he claimed that they would these him with other girls too. But, why was her name highighted most, she would wonder. Hmmm... Then there was a day he called her and said he wanted to deliver his birthday cake to her house. She said 'no' but he insisted. What a sweet guy she felt. And he was there for her all the time. Now he was 21 already and she was 20. She felt care and affection. She was falling in love with him slowly.

But afraid to say, I don't think it was the same from the other side. Was it his mistake being nice? Was he asking for trouble? Well when things turned out to be the way it is now, I would say he did ask for trouble. He messed with a girl's heart. Now she has so much to give him but she's not sure if he's the one she should give her love to. He is not responding to her love and seems to be detaching from it. It seems like he does not want the love.

But Lionel, Cashell loves you with all her heart. She may have loved and may have forgotten the previous loves. She may even learn to forget your love. But the point is, now she loves you. She understands that she's not girl friend material but all she wants to do is care for you. And even if you don't feel the same way for her, she just wants you to spend some quality time like a friend and stay around her. She loves your presence. Now she's all upset and she feels stupid. She feels like an employee working in a company unpaid by her boss. She wants to be tough and does not want her heart to be pulled around. She wants some one to hold her heart for her. She feels....

Why care when they dont?

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Monday, April 30, 2007

MMU Awards Night 2007..... or may i say Glamour Night!

Oh well, this indicates one year of me blogging! MMU Awards 2007, as usual, the best night in MMU but somehow i would say last year was ten times better. The sames reasons for being the best this year of course being the attendance of my Daya darling and ehem ehem , you know who. Did I ever mention? I love the Karate Club, I just love them, i really feel I'm one of them although i stepped down from the secretary pose this year. I really hope to join the Karate table again next year :) Gems all of them. Aiseh! We thought we would win the first award but gees, Swin Carnival won! Ha! Ha! The first guy to go up stage, so much confidence, so cute, so handsome, so much style, so much sophistication, and the way he walked up, I was impressed and I was so proud of him, well I am always proud of him, and happy for all his achievements, i wish success and happiness all the way. I just wish I could be with through his life successes but then again, some things don't always happen the way you want them to. That's okay, i'm happy for him always and there's on thing that's true, I wouldn't do anything to hurt him, that's for sure :) And Daya darling, looking as gorgeous as ever. Love you dear...


ME AND MY DAYA DARLING!

ME AND CHECI DARLING!

ME AND MY FIROZ NANA DARLING!

ME AND MY SHOVON BHAIYA DARLING!

ME AND MY THARAN DAR.....hmmm nope, just ME AND THARMINDRAN (>_<)

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Friday, April 27, 2007

This explains Miss Pokai...

STARBUCKS COFFEE
IOI MALL TEL: (603)58821874
Berjaya Starbucks Coffee Company
Sdn. Bhd (462026-H)

Website: www.starbucks.com.my

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Bill No.: 002-259780 Dine in
Date: 2007/04/15 23:15:53
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Espresso Tiramisu 2 RM 17.60
Iced Latte (T) 1 RM 9.50
:Milk (T)
Add syrup 1 RM 0.00
:Caramel Syrup RM 1.70
IcedCarChoc (G) 1 RM 12.50
:Milk (G) ______________
Sub-Total RM 41.30
Tax RM 2.07
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Grand Total RM 43.37
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CASH RM 50.00
Change RM 6.63

Have a Grande Day!

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Ha! Ha! Of course the whole bill was not mine, i had the highlighted ones, and of course only one Tiramisu. Gees! How could i spend money like that? I need to save for my future! And look at all the unnecessary nonsense like 'tax' which i payed for? Ish! Must the be dissatisfaction that I had free dinner that day! Wakaka! Thanks to Karate-Do Club. Ha!Ha! Can't wait for tomorrow. Daya darling!!!!!!

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

A romance comedy: LIONEL AND GF (girl friend) PART 5

PART 5- The Man U Match!

Oh Lionel! What desires to do on Nobita?! Nobita is so entertained with Lionel's answers. Nobita continues her itterogation with Lionel. She asks him more and more questions.

Nobita: So, Lionel, if you love me sooooo much, will you do for me anything?

Lionel: Of course, Nobi dear, anything!

Nobita: Will you do me more than just a miss call? ;;) (she winks at Lionel)

Lionel is mesmerized and is lifted into the air, feet off the ground as Nobita winks at him.

Lionel: Oh, Nobi dear, what is it you want of me? Shall I send you two miss calls instead?

Nobita: Oh, Lionel! You are so sweet! Two miss calls will make you so special! :x Lionel, ... (suddenly Nobita is interrupted by Lionel)

Lionel: Eh, shit! I forgot! There's a Man U match! Aiyo! Alamak! Man U would have scored 3 goals already! What la, Nobi? Couldn't you find another day to date? Ish! X( (Lion runs off to find the nearest TV set)

Nobita: :-s (faints)

(to be continued)

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Saturday, March 31, 2007

A romance comedy: LIONEL AND GF (girl friend) PART 4

PART 4 - Nobita gets jealous.

The 'miss call' machine that Doraemon takes out from his pocket becomes famous. People from all over the world come to see Doraemon and find out more bout the 'miss call' machine. Most of them even buy it.

Nobita gets jealous that most boy friends are now calling their girl friends back. She feels that Lionel is not unique anymore. She wants more from Lionel. More! More! More! No longer just a miss call.

One day, dating Lionel,

Nobita: Lionel..... you sayang(foreign language, sayang=love) me, right? ;;)

Lionel: Of course, Nobi dear!

Nobita starts speaking in the foreign language again.

Nobita: Abang,..... ;;) , kalau saya bunga, abang nak jadi apa? ;;)

Lionel: Hmmmm... :-? abang nak jadi duri, supaya boleh jaaaaga adinda dari dipetik orang.

Nobita: :x Abanggggg...kalau adinda jadi puteri, abang nak jadi apa?

Lionel: Abang nak jadi katak! Supaya adinda boleh ciiiium abang.

Nobita: Oh! Besnya! Abang,...kalau adinda jadi bulan, abang nak jadi apa?

Lionel: Abang jadi angkasawan!

Nobita: :-/ Kenapa? (Nobita is confused. She asks why)

Lionel: Supaya ....supaya....supaya...abang boleh jalan-jalan atas adinda! >:) kekekekeke!

Goodness gracious Lionel!

(to be continued)

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Friday, March 23, 2007

A romance comedy: LIONEL AND GF (girl friend) PART 3

PART 3 - Doraemon introduces the 'miss call' machine.

Our poor girl Nobita is blur. She doesn't know what a miss call is. Lionel so badly wants to explain to Nobita was a miss call is but he doesn't know how to. He realises that Doraemon would be the best person to explain this new change of making miss calls. He calls Doraemon.

Doraemon walks into scene where Nobita and Lionel are still discussing about the miss call.

Lionel: Eh, Doraemon, can u explain to Nobita darling what a miss call is?

Doraemon immediately takes a machine out of his little pocket and explains to Nobita.

Doraemon: (in foreign language - imagine exact voice of the real Doraemon)
INILAH MESIN PENDESAK MEMBUAT PANGGILAN!

(to be continued)

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